You guys ever get the feeling when you think you can cope, slowly and steadily at a time, then the stress builds up over that time and suddenly you just want to explode? Yeah, I have that feeling right now.
Since school is starting next week, I will most definitely have to start studying. I mean, I was too lazy to study before and I passed all my exams, even coming first, second or third in some subjects, without studying. Since Year 10 is a big year, and it indicates our transition into the senior level, I need to start studying now if I want to score high marks on my HSC and get into a good university. So, school and stress are bothering me at the moment.
Also, another thing is my...piano hobby. I'm on my last and final grade for piano before fully completing the course, which is actually pretty amazing for someone my age. Unfortunately, this means that I have to practice really hard. And I'm a slow learner - no matter how much I try, I can't seem to find myself improving. I don't know if I can go onto the exam this year if I keep going at this rate. Also, money is an issue - my hobby is art isn't exactly costly. Less than $120 on my tablet doesn't compete with the $40 I have to pay every week for my piano lessons. So I have to make the absolute best out of them.
I'm sorry this is so sudden but...I need to get my life straight. I'm starting to love art quite a lot, but music is my undeterred passion and school is...just a mandatory thing that everyone has to go through.
I still have to withdraw from my RP groups and inform my RPers about my decision. Hopefully, this hiatus won't be for too long. I think...it's safe to say I may log on in the holidays, but during the long school times...I don't think so.
I am so grateful I have as much watchers as I do. I'm glad you guys supported me right through to the end. I wish you all the best for your future, because now I have to deal with mine.
Thankyou, I hope you guys understand.